3rd
It ain’t easy…
to remember how to feel
after so many years pretending
you forget what it feels like
to laugh, really laugh
or cry, and really cry, or even why
you made yourself forget and not see the bad things inside.
you passed it around,
put it out there like your dirty laundry,
but of course pretended again, no one could see it
that made you feel safe,
made you feel strong, always pretending there was nothing wrong.
now you’re lost, cause you’ve chipped away
any inkling of emotion that causes devotion or makes someone want to stay.
there is a bright side though,
you’ll be mystified by it’s depth
to pull you up and cradle, like a mother’s caress
it ain’t easy to be you
when you’ve put so much into
not being that person at all
but you’ll start to feel, really feel
and love, really love
and sigh, really sigh
and hurt, really hurt
but not be afraid
because you know, it ain’t easy,
but it’s real.
